Peace and Possibilities

Completely random aside… the title of this blog reminds me of Sense and Sensibility, which reminds me that while browsing in a bookstore over the weekend I saw a shelf of “repackaged” classics — Pride & Prejudice, Romeo & Juliet, Sense & Sensibility — with covers quite similar to those of the Twilight series and tag lines such as “the original love story”.  Just found that interesting…  now back to the actual post:

I was all set to write about Peace today — specifically about this bible verse:

Don’t be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.  ~ Philippians 4:6-7

This verse is so special to me, because at a time when I was overwhelmed by anxiety and the unknown I did start trying to follow that verse.  I memorized the verse, I posted it all over my house, I clung to it for reassurance and hope.  I somehow found peace in the midst of internal and external turmoil. That experience made a lasting impression.  This bible verse became not just a verse of scripture but MY bible verse, MY promise, MY hope.  It’s a good thing that it did.  Being peaceful is not my default mode.  It should be… but more often I find myself struggling with anxiety and mentally rehearsing the worst that could happen and paralyzed by indecision from possibilities.  I’m working on that one…  I think it is time to post that verse up some more.

I can’t speak more on peace right now.  I’m not there.  Where I am is looking towards possibilities… the good kind of possibilities.  Having a weekend away… sans children… in a clean hotel room instead of my unorganized (to say the least) house… helped me see how life could be if I just felt like I could relax a little more often (and possibly clean a little more often as well).  It gave me some hope for possibilities of a slightly saner life.  It reminded me that parenting a 4-year-old (as much as I love him!) can be draining… and that needing time by myself or just with my husband is not just something I want as a luxury but it really is something I need to be able to keep being positive and have a better perspective on daily life.  (And, yet, I still feel guilty typing that out).  And, of course, missing the little guy reminded me how precious he can be.  His Granny thought he was perfect all weekend.  I think a lot too how many possibilities are out there for him… and how much it is my responsibility to keep those open for him — to keep him feeling positive and cherished, to show God to him, to model behaviors that will help him get along with others (I don’t always do that).  And, of course, being able to hold and snuggle my not-quite-one-month-old nephew reminded me all over again how much possibility lies with the birth of every new child… and how much his life is dependent on having a mommy and daddy to take care of his every need for his life to be peaceful.  Lucky for him, he has that.

So… my goal for today… beyond the typical Monday routine of grocery list-making, grocery shopping, catching up from the weekend… is to stress out a little less, prioritize a little more, work on bringing a little more peace to my house and be thankful for the blessings that are already there.

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8 responses to this post.

  1. I saw the new cover of “Wuthering Heights” online that said it was Edward’s Favorite Book. I guess whatever it will take to get teens to read the classics! A verse I recite all the time is “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:7) God is the best therapist in the world if you let him into your life!

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  2. Certainly worth remembering, I try to get a little quiet time every day, but mis the mark more than I care to admit.

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  3. Edward’s favorite! Yikes.

    I didn’t like Wuthering Heights, but I love the other Bronte book, Jane Eyre.

    During the worst of my PPD, I had the following on my screensaver, with a picture of Amy sticking out her tongue: “If a thing’s worth doing, it’s worth doing badly” — G. K. Chesterton, and “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus” — Romans 8:1.

    And my hymn was “My Shepherd Will Supply My Need.” Especially the last verse: “Oh, may your house be my abode… there will I find a settled rest, while others come and go; no more a stranger or a guest, but like a child at home.”

    Parenting sure is draining, especially trying to be compassionate and respectful as much as possible, when the little dears are often so oppositional, disrespectful, disobedient, and quick to take offense and to whine. I’m planning to write on that stuff on R, for rhetoric — what you say, how you say it, and the question of how to teach manners and obedience without squelching feelings, desires, and the choosing and pursuit of goals. Rest would be a good one for that day, too — it is hard for me to choose rest sometimes, but it does make a difference when I get it.

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  4. God is good! He always is there to help us in our weaknesses! Excellent verse… I use to do the same thing with that verse because I used to get anxious and worried all the time… but God is helping me to not stress… it’s a process… He has his hand upon your life… get some rest mama! Take some quiet time and fill up! 🙂

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  5. Posted by Rae on April 20, 2010 at 7:06 am

    You sound like a good mama! Hope you find that peace….

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  6. Peace and Possibilities — I like it! I like your thoughts. It is hard to get away from the little ones when they want us and when we think being a good mother means being there all of the time. But I agree that getting away along and with just hubby is PART of being a good mother. It is like putting the oxygen on yourself first and then helping another. Thanks for your musings. I enjoyed your post.

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  7. get outta my brain girl…seriously. It is a blessing to read your posts. thanks for sharing the words.
    love
    jenni

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  8. Beautiful post! I love that verse and also vs 8: Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

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